After watching the freak show that was the 2016 Presidential Election, I must say that I don’t think I’ve ever seen something so divisive and polarizing to such a large degree in my entire life. I couldn’t help but be amazed not only at the election results, but even more so at the aftermath. Simply watching the social media posts and news articles revealed to me quite the picture of the current state of America. The morning after the results, I saw argument after argument, accusations and blaming, quarreling and division between friends and family, boasting and mockery, bigotry and ignorance, helplessness and hopelessness. We truly are a divided nation.
I don’t think there was any point of time in my life where I could attribute myself with “popularity” or “fame” or anything of that sort. I was too negligible to become well-known. I was far too shy and introverted to build up any sort of reputation among my circle of peers. That was pretty much the reality of my existence. Sure, other kids knew I had some degree of artistic ability, but that didn’t really put me on a pedestal or anything. I had the spotlight at times during my singing days, but I was just a placeholder, just another body on the stage. I didn’t quite carry the same weight as my cohorts did, who were all either more well-known or more attractive or more skilled at their craft. I was simply filling the part.
I grew up with quite a few musical influences. I was an 80’s child, with much of my listening coming from the wide variety of music that my brothers and mother listened to. From Metallica, The Cure, Stevie Wonder, Queen, Kraftwerk, Earth Wind & Fire, the Beastie Boys, Michael Jackson, to the “light rock, less talk” type, I’d say I have been exposed to and consumed quite an interesting smorgasbord of genres. There’s one thing that I can say for certain.
I love music.
My parents took a trip out of town not too long ago, leaving the house in my “capable” hands for a week. Coincidentally, my ex decided to take the kids that very same week so I was pretty much alone in the house. It’s not often that I get a taste of the single not-quite-bachelor life. I don’t know if I’ll ever earn enough to be on my own when taking into account the situation with my kids, but I suppose I got to briefly experience how it would be. In the days prior to their departure, I wondered how it would be and how I would handle things. I pondered what I could do and what I should do. In looking back on my behavior, I found my actions to be somewhat interesting.
This is how I feel sometimes. I’ve been churning out a ton of covers lately, though I think I’m using it as a means of escape, honestly.
There’s so much on my plate lately that I sometimes feel like I need to get away from everything.
So here’s what I’ve done since the last post:
By now, you probably know I enjoy singing quite a bit. I think I have 5 or 6 covers in the works, but I just haven’t had the time to really work on them.
Well, no that’s not true. I certainly have.
You see, the thing is… I tend to get distracted easily.
One song cover after another gets shelved as I get sidetracked and start working on others. This very song is one of those distractions. I mocked it up last night and churned it out today when my voice was a little more cooperative. I altered a few lines in the lyrics slightly so that the English would make a little more sense. The original lyrics in parenthesis and adjusted lines are in single quotes.
Here are the lyrics and chords:
As a YouTuber, I’m pretty much an unknown entity. When I first created the channel, I merely used it as an outlet to vent my musical urges and endeavors. I didn’t actively pursue a fan base or subscribers or anything like that. I saw it basically as a place to share what I love and enjoy (… with nobody :P).
There were a few videos I posted that actually got a decent amount of attention. However, a majority of those were just posts of songs that I pulled from an anime soundtrack. As for my own creations, there were a few covers I did that were viewed more than most of my other stuff. They’re nothing really fancy or elaborate… simply just me singing or playing the guitar.
I can’t say that I take entertainment value into consideration when I post videos. I never really have. The thought crossed my mind a few times to put in a little more effort into my productions. Stumbling across people like Smooth Mcgrooves and one of my acquaintances Del has inspired me to try to do more and put in more effort.
So I tried.
My musical interests have spanned quite a range of genres over my listening history thus far. I have probably enjoyed music from almost every one that I could think of. For my personal listening, I’ve gone from “light rock, less talk” (adult contemporary), to pop (as vague and broad as that is), to rock/heavy metal, to funk/disco, to rap, to hip-hop, to alternative, to “the quiet storm” (R&B), to classical/instrumental, to J-pop, and finally to J-Rock. I was stuck on the J-Rock phase for quite a while and that would be the only thing coming out of my car speakers and headphones. My hobby of anime watching continued to feed me in that area as I’d discover newer songs from the shows I’d watch. I also began to follow a few artists as a result (ecosystem, 9mm, and Prague). I do still listen to it on occasion, but there’s a new sound emanating from these cans of mine. I must confess that this latest one definitely caught me off guard and I wasn’t expecting to get into it as much as I did. What genre is that?
In my personal reading of the Bible, as I began exploring other translations, I started to notice the differences between them with regards to the capitalization of pronouns when referring to God (He, Him, His, etc). The first version I had when I started delving deeper in my studies was the New American Standard (NASB). I believe there are only two translations that utilize capitalization when referring to God, with the NASB being one of them. I read an interesting post by author Randy Alcorn about the matter that although it doesn’t necessarily follow the rules of English, it’s more about your convictions whether you do it or not. I personally capitalize pronouns related to God in my writing and my personal notes because it’s easier for me to tell who I’m referring to. There were several verses with multiple he’s that referred both to the generic man and God in the same verse or context. The capitalized form made it easier to distinguish between the two. It also grew on me the more I read it that way and I personally felt it honors Him more by doing so.
(Okay… not really)
As somewhat of a follow-up to the previous post, I didn’t exactly mention all the lies that I have thrown around during my life (so far). Now, confessing my lies wasn’t exactly the intent of my previous post (and if you didn’t get that, maybe you should give it another read. Oh, and if you need a explanation, what can I say other than “I’m a sinner”?). However, thinking about this aspect of my life and my struggles with it did make me think about another lie that I’m guilty of telling. If I were to rate my lies, I’d say there’s one lie in particular which stands far above all the others. Probably the biggest lie I have ever told anyone… or maybe everyone. This is probably the most frequently told lie as well. As for what draws this one out, you could blame it on this question: